It's Been Awhile, Eh?

I last posted in September of last year.  LAST YEAR.  It's 2016 already.  Where did the time go?!

Let's see if we can recap quickly.  November was the boys' birthdays, they had a joint party at one of the pizza party places here.  It was a nice, tiring time.  December was pretty sweet as well.  Spending our first Christmas with Adam was really great.  The kids loved their gifts.  Though it's hard to get through Christmas with one child knowing Santa (SPOILER ALERT!) isn't real, another on the verge of learning and accepting this truth, and another I want to protect from said truth as long as I possibly can.  New Year's was slightly uneventful.  We hung out with mom and dad for a couple hours then went home before the ball dropped.  I had to wake everyone up to kiss them goodnight.  Next year we're going out, dammit!

I recently purchased a Fitbit ChargeHR and am making a point to be healthier all around.  I walk from the bus stop to the school which is a little about 3 miles round trip.  I try and take walks in between classes on the campus.  That's about 2 miles from one end to the other.  I'm drinking more water, making healthier food choices.  It's hard, but I've got goals.  I'm going to be 35 this year and I just want to look the best I've ever looked.

There was an even that happened late January that still baffles me.  I just still do not understand how people can act the way they do and feel zero remorse.  You find out who your friends are.

Now we're in February.  Caleb has been in the hospital since the 4th.  Well...technically it was since the 3rd, but they sent him home not thinking anything was wrong.  Boy were they mistaken.  It was pneumonia and asthma.  Again.  Almost 3 years to the day when he got it last time.  Thankfully, this time we got to stay in our city and that I have awesome parents and an awesome boyfriend.  Everyone took turns staying with him so I could go to school.  He had a ton of visitors while he was here, too.  Today we get to go home.  Insert happy dance here.

Also, today is Ash Wednesday.  The beginning of Lent.  I have given up something I've been trying to quit for forever.  Now God can hold me accountable.  I'm already struggling.  Pray for me.  Also remind me that today I can have absolutely NO meat.  I'm already slipping thinking about what I want for lunch.  Ooops.

Graduation is slated for August 12th.  I've got fingers and toes crossed that I can walk then.  I'll still have to take another class in the fall, but I'll essentially be done.  Woo.  4 years took forever.  FOR.EV.ER.

I've also been knitting again.  I'm branching out with new designs.  It's pretty fun and relaxing regardless of what other people say.  I truly enjoy it. Check out the shop.

Anywho, that's what we've been up to.  Hope you're all well.  I'm going to try and continue to write.  

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We have 3 days until we fly out to Orlando.  I'm so excited, but I'm SO stressed out at the same time.  There's so much going on between school and the kids and my personal life.  I feel like freaking out.  I have been freaking out.  Under the surface.  I'm like that proverbial duck.  Sane-ish looking above water, but kicking like hell underneath.  

One reason I'm freaking out because I'm supposed to graduate in May. I'm taking 5 classes this semester.  4 of them pertain to my major and minor and one is French 3.  And in case you didn't know, French is one hard language to learn.  How I got an A in both French 1 & 2 is beyond me!  Four Classes per one semester can drain anyone, I don't know how my BF was able to take 5 for more than one semester at a time.  Oh and did I mention I have a final this week? Oy...

Reason #2 is that I have to pack myself and 3 kids for this huge trip and the kids are on a mini vacation as I type this.  Which means the night they come home, I have to wash and re-pack EVERYTHING.  I have a check list.  I hope I stick to it.  I hope we don't forget anything.  Adam tells me that if we were to forget something, the resort would be able to provide it for us.  I hope so.  I know I'm stressing him out with my worrying.  I try not to, he's got his own things to deal with, but I have always been a worrier.

There are other reasons I won't bore anyone with.  And I know I should "let go and let God." I want to.  It's just hard.  But I'm taking a deep breath and trusting that everything will work out the way it's supposed to.  

I really am excited for Disney World.  I'm excited to see the kids' faces.  I'm excited to be there with the man I love.  I'm excited that we also get to share the experience with his parents.  I'm excited to eat to my hearts content, and wear Minnie Ears, and take pictures with as many characters as I can.  And while I'm on vacation, I will try and leave my worries at home and really enjoy my time away.  This is my first real "get on a plane and go somewhere" vacation I've had in 10 years.  Insane, right?  

As I was typing that last paragraph, I put myself in a better mood.  Maybe I just needed to vent a little.

I hope you all have a great Day.

To Blog or Not To Blog...

I've been MIA.  Again.  I'm lacking motivation.  For school, mostly.  I know I'm almost done, but I just can't seem to find the light at the end of that tunnel.  It's really frustrating.

I haven't even had the motivation to create anything.  I made myself a Fourth of July wallpaper, only because I wanted it to match my new case. 

And, as a result, I closed my ETSY shop temporarily.  Knitted items are not that in demand right now.  Who knew?!  You can go to my shop's Facebook page to continue to purchase through Paypal: Becca Itzel Designs.  When I have time and when it gets cooler (ha), I will reopen.  I am actually taking a Computer Science class right now and am learning how to build my own website, so hopefully I can create my own shop site that's all my own.  I'm actually kind of excited about this.

Since I'm considering blogging again I will add some personal stuff here as well.

I joined a group on Facebook to help motivate me to be healthier.  I love it.  With the exception of my best friend, the other women are strangers.  They're awesome.  We all have a common goal and it's to be happy in our own skin.  It's wonderful.  I see a difference in myself I haven't seen in awhile.  I am 3 lbs away from my goal weight and my BMI and Body Fat % are in the healthy range.  I've never been a super healthy person, overall.  I walk every day on campus between classes.  And Texas State is not a small campus to walk!  Add me on Fitbit if you're interested: Becky. 

The kids are great.  The boys started the summer off with a bang.  They got to go with my dad to NYC.  We have family in the Bronx and they loved every minute of it.  Jackson got along so well with everyone and Caleb got to soak up culture and history.  I hope to take him to DC one of these years.  Izzie is spending time with her father and but will be home within the next week.  I'm glad she is able to feel comfortable here and with her dad's family.

The boyfriend and I are doing well.  We got to have a couple weekends alone while the kids were on vacation.  I really enjoyed the time we got to spend together.  It's rare.  Houston was especially fun because I got to hang out with a couple I went to school with AND see my childhood best friend.  I can't wait to go back. :)

Any way, there's the update on my life.  Hope you're all well.